Posts Tagged ‘hours’

There are advantages to being ill …….

Tuesday, September 29th, 2009

…… but not many of them. I discovered one of them yesterday though. I’ve been ill since the end of July, when I developed a chest infection and viral illness at the same time. Unfortunately after all this time, I’m still not better and the doctor has told me that I’ve got Post Viral Fatigue. He says it could last for weeks, or months or years! I don’t want to be ill for that long. I feel fine when I’m sitting here, but as soon as I get up and try to do something physical I get absolutely exhausted.

When I was really ill for all of August, I could hardly do anything. I knew it was important to eat properly to help me get better, so that’s what I concentrated my very limited energy on. I tried to eat good nourishing food, probably better than I do usually when I’m busy and rushing around. (yes, I can just about remember being like that!)

When I had recovered enough to go back to work after being off for five and a half weeks, my new hours had started. Funny how things work out isn’t it. I’m working every other day now, which gives me a day to rest and recover in between. As soon as I started working again, people said to me ‘You’ve lost weight’ Well that’s good news. I wanted to lose a bit of weight, but not in such a drastic way by being so ill!

I’ve been wearing black to work ever since I had that meeting in July. I couldn’t wear colour as I was in mourning for the loss of the hours but especially for the loss of the creative part of my job that I’m not expected to do any more. Yesterday for the first time I decided that I was ready to wear some colour. I chose a long turquoise skirt and turquoise top, but I did team it with a black cardigan because I didn’t have a colour to go with the skirt.

I had a bit of time to look at the shops before work, and wanted to try and find a brown cardigan – so I could move on from black! There wasn’t one in the shop I like, but I did see the skirt that I’d had my eye on all summer. I was hoping that it would be in the sale by now but it wasn’t.

I tried it on and it fitted me perfectly and looked really nice, so I decided to buy it. I also decided to wear it, because as I’d been walking round looking at the shops, my turquoise skirt kept slipping down and I had to keep pulling it up. It was in danger of slipping off altogether, which as well as causing me acute embarrasment, could have tripped me up and caused an injury, especially if I was on the stairs at the time. It definately wasn’t safe to wear it to work.

It was only 3 weeks since I’d last worn that skirt, so I certainly have lost some weight. I’m happy with that, and I hope that I can manage not to put it back on again when I’m better, which I hope will be very soon!

What a shock

Saturday, July 18th, 2009

I had a meeting with my Senior Managers yesterday. I knew that things were difficult in the current economic climate and I knew that they were looking at what they could do about. They say they have to cut expenses and one of the ways they’re going to do it is to cut my hours in half.

That leaves me in a very difficult position. I love my job and I’m good at it. I’m good with the customers and I’m good at selling and sourcing the right product to stock in the shop, and knowing what’s likely to sell and what isn’t. I have serious doubts that it’s possible to do the job in 15 hours a week, even with the reorganisations that the management want. I don’t want to find that I’m expected to fit a lot more hours worth of work into the shorter hours which would be very, very stressful.

Of course the other problem is that halving my hours will halve my salary to a level that it’s not possible to live on. I’ve already been working part-time hours on a very low hourly rate and I know that what I’m earning at the moment just about pays the bills with enough left over to buy food and petrol. So that leaves me with a dilema. The managers expressed the hope that I would be able to find another part time job to make up the shortfall. Is that realistic in the current conditions? I don’t think so.

Even though my job is very important to me, my priority will have to be earning enough to live on. That means that if I do find a suitable job, it may not fit in with my new hours and so I would have to leave the Bookshop where I’ve worked for the past 15 years. I find that possibility very distressing and upsetting.

So now I have to be proactive and start looking for a job. I may find that a miracle happens and I can find another part time job to complement the Bookshop, but I’m not going to hold my breath.